Wildorbit3200's Journals

Earth Hour Tonight

Please refer to this website.

Many cities have joined up to turn their lights off for one hour.

http://www2.earthhourus.org/chicago.php

127 Film???? HELP

So, I bought this camera. A Zeiss Ikonata. It takes 127 film. Does anyone know where I can find it reasonably cheaper than 18.00 a roll. I almost fell over when I heard that. You only get 16 photos also. I was wondering if it would be possible to cut 120 film. Does anyone have any experience with this?

Mary

A day in the life....

This week is my first anniversary, my anniversary of walking into the Temple. I never thought that I would still be attending ZBT, but I am. I am a Buddhist, and I practice as much as I can. It is diffucult finding time to sit, to meditate, but I try, as much as I can. Keeping the Precepts have even been harder. I find that everything leads back to the first Precept which is "do not harm any living thing/being." How can you do that? I can say the wrong thing and it hurts someone. Do you know how many times I have broken my first Precept? Now, in May I am going to renew them. Start fresh. I think I broke the first Precept before I left Toronto last year.

It has been a rough week. I've been trying to keep my head above water without slipping under. I've gotten my feelings hurt. I've been yelled at, lied to, and the letting go part.... The letting go is what is important in Buddhism. It's the hardest thing that I have ever tried to do. LET GO. Don't cling. Sounds so easy, but its not.

I wondered today, what exactly is Zen? Who started this? I grabbed some of my books an began leafing through the pages...reading scriptures..reading books written by the Dalai Lama...and I think maybe I understand a little more. I don't know. It's hard to explain though. It seems as though everywhere I go I see Buddha's. (Statues) Not real Buddha's. I never noticed before. Is Buddhism really becoming popular or is it just a passing fad?

I think back to a year ago and wonder if I have changed all that much. I think I tolerate more. I focus more on the present, the moment instead of worrying about what happened yesterday or earlier. I can't worry about a minute from now because it hasn't happened yet.

When I go to the Temple I learn something new all the time. I think I am finally getting it. Buddhism to me is a way of life. Not so much a Religion but it's THE WAY OF LIFE. How beautiful this world would be if we all treated eachother with a little respect. Wouldn't it be great to wake up in the morning and know it is going to be a great day instead of dreading going into work or out in the snow/cold.

I always ask my Teacher alot of questions but she never really answers me. She answers me with a question. Why do you ask me these questions Suyeon? Then she asks more questions.

Maybe I will never understand the true meaning of Buddhism but I know I am enjoying my journey. I love where I am at in my life. I feel better after my practice and I love going to the Temple.

I can't believe it has been a year.

Peace,

Suyeon

Eye Fetch

I joined EYEFETCH...I just thought I would check it out for now. I only posted a couple of photos. So far it seems to be pretty good though.

I still will be here but I am going to be posting on that site also.

Wild

And now,another day in the life....

I'm getting back into the thick of things...taking pics..chillin, and enjoying the weather. Well, its raining now, but it was warm today.

I am devolping a bad habit, www.shopgoodwill.com
I need an intervention real bad. I have a running list of the stuff that I bought on there but for all good reasons.

1. Bag Pipes
They are beginners pipes...I don't know when I will begin

2. 4 original Dept of Corrections Orange Jumpsuits. I used them as props in a party that I had.
Anyone out there want one?

3. 2 pairs of brand new Jeans...love em. I only paid 5 bucks for them

4. A drum
why why why

5 and 6. Two more Buddha's to add to my never ending collection which is growing at a very fast rate.

7. 3 Vintage circa 1920 hats...totally awesome
And yes, I have worn them...I also had my hair in finger waves.

Things I am bidding on:
Another Buddha
New Harley Boots
and other shit that I don't need

Bucket List Tres

20. Find Jenny Seduikas or Genevieve Seduikas(Sedoikas) she was my best friend when I was 13...after that, she disappeared never to be heard from again.

21. Jack Nicholson said " He would lie more"...Being a Buddhist, one of our Precepts is not to lie, but sometimes in certain situations you have to analyze it and maybe not so much LIE but don't say anything. When you are totally honest in all situations you can easily hurt someone. I have always prided myself on telling the truth but now I find that truth sometimes needs to be manipulated so no one gets hurt....make sense?

22. I think maybe I am going off course because when you say Bucket List you might think that these are things that you are going to throw away. To explain this to someone who just started reading my BUCKET LIST...these are things I want to do before I die.

I want to live live live until I die die die. (Garfield The Cat)

23. See the Chicago BlackHawks Play. I never went to a Hockey Game

24. Meet Pixeltopia-Jeff. Why? He seems so sweet and genuine.

25. Live to see the Chicago Cubs take the pennant

26. Go to a remote island with my Hubby and not think about this job that is aggravating

27. Learn to play Cribbage

28. Learn to play Bridge

29. Retire before I reach 60

30. Go to Ireland for a month

31.

Bucket List Part Deux

"The Things to do are: The things that need doing, that you see need to be done, and that no one else seems to see need to be done. Then you will conceive your own way of doing that which needs to be done ? That no one else has told you to do or how to do it. This will bring out the real you that often gets buried inside a character that has acquired a superficial array of behaviors induced or imposed by others on the individual."
-- R. Buckminster Fuller

And now...a few of my favorite quotes: What is to give light must endure burning.
~Viktor Frankl

Silence is a great help to a seeker after truth.
In the attitude of silence the soul finds the path
in a clearer light and what is elusive and deceptive
resolves itself into crystal clearness.
Our life is a long and arduous quest after Truth,
and the soul requires inward restfulness to
attain its full height.
~Mohandas K Gandhi

There are two ways of passing from this world -
one in light and one in darkness.
When one passes in light, he does not come back;
but when one passes in darkness, he returns.
~Bhagavad Gita

Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth
and rust consume and where thieves break in and steal, but
lay up for yourself treasures in heaven, where neither moth
nor rust consumes and where thieves do not break in and steal.
For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.
~Jesus

There's music in the sighing of a reed; There's music in the
gushing of a rill; There's music in all things, if men had ears:
Their earth is but an echo of the spheres.
~Lord Byron

You must understand the whole of life, not just
one little part of it. That is why you must read,
that is why you must look at the skies, that is
why you must sing and dance, and write poems,
and suffer, and understand, for all that is life.
~J.Krishnamurti

Outside ideas of right doing and wrong doing there is
a field. I'll meet you there.
~ Rumi

Let your life lightly dance on the edges of time like
dew on the tip of a leaf.
~Rabindranath Tagore

Love expects no reward. Love knows no fear. Love Divine
gives - does not demand. Love thinks no evil; imputes no
motive. To Love is to share and serve.
~Sivananda

Do not keep the alabaster box of your friendship
sealed up until your friends are dead. Fill their lives
with sweetness. Speak approving, cheering words
while their ears can hear them, and while their hearts
can be thrilled and made happier. The kind of things you
mean to say when they are gone, say before they go.
~George W. Childs

People deal too much with the negative, with what is wrong...
Why not try and see positive things, to just touch those
things and make them bloom?
~Thich Nhat Hanh

Keep me away from the wisdom which does not cry,
the philosophy which does not laugh and the greatness
which does not bow before children.
~Kahlil Gibran

This is love: to fly toward a secret sky, to cause a hundred
veils to fall each moment. First to let go of life. Finally,
to take a step without feet.
~Rumi

Teachers open the door, but you must enter by yourself.
~Chinese Proverb

If you want others to be happy, practice compassion.
If you want to be happy, practice compassion."
~The 14th Dalai Lama

Life is a promise; fulfill it.
~Mother Theresa

The intuitive mind is a sacred gift and the rational mind is a faithful servant. We have created a society that honors the servant and has forgotten the gift.
~Albert Einstein

The Bucket List

I am tired of working for a living. I want to live a life with less. Nevertheless, I have to work to survive. I have to work to live. Right? I've been thinking about alot of things lately...There are many things I would like to change about my life but where to begin. I guess instead of writing about it, I should be doing something about it.

My Bucket List:

I can't wait to see the movie with Jack Nicholson and Morgan Freeman. These Gent's are truly my favorite actors. Two class acts. I haven't seen the movie yet. I know what it is about so I am going to start my own Bucket List. Things I want to do before I die? Or things I want to do before I am 50. That is only 8 months away...I think things I want to do before I dont get to do them.

1. Sky Dive
2. Go back to New Orleans and stay on Ursilines and Royal ....
3. Be an extra in a movie
4. Be a better example
5. Excersize everyday
6. Vegan Vegan Vegan
7. Own an Alpaca
8. Downsize
9.Visit Thailand
10. Ski
11. Speak French Fluently
12. Fly a kite
13. Be on the Bill O'Reilly Show (be careful what you wish for)
14. Sleep 8 hours
15.Figure out how to navigate Buzznet from day to day..
16.Of course, lose weight
17. Learn to Fly Fish
18. Paint
19. Use the Lomo
TO BE CONTINUED......................................

Back In Chicago

I drove home from Iowa yesterday. I was amazed at all of the cars that were in ditches. I counted 42. There was a semi truck and trailer in the middle highway turned on its side. I am grateful to the Farmer who told me not to drive through the night. It would be too dangerous. Im glad I listened to him.

The drive is getting very old. I find myself not wanting to drive there twice a month. It is so long..but I can't stay away from the kids either. I won't bring them back. I think we can't live together anymore. They are too used to being in Iowa. They call it home. Yikes. I don't think I could ever call it home. Home is Chicago. My first love.

I thought alot about what I wanted for the New Year. No resolutions...forget that. I never stick to them anyway. I want to finally be in a place where I can relax and not have people fretting over how much overtime I have worked (at work) sheesh, some people get so jealous.

I want to be a better Buddhist for sure. Im trying. Its dedication, its a passion, it must be in your heart, mind, soul. I know it is what I want. I just cant seem to get a good hold on it. I fail, I break Precepts, but I try not to ever break the first one. Do not harm. Every precept seems to lead back to the first one. When you do one thing, it always leads back to harming someone.

I have to think alot about that sometimes. I try to think before I open my mouth. Breathe.......

I think that I think too much . I over analyze. I make hasty decisions, I cry too much..I want to please everyone and can't please myself. I yearn to be thinner, heathier, wiser and a good role model to my Kids who are now going up very fast.

I want to travel but not to Iowa. I want to go to a warm climate and sit on the beach and soak up the sun. I want to do alot of things but I don't have the time or money and that sucks.

I miss my Therapist. He always helped me put things in perspective. I cant afford him right now, so I guess I will use BN to dump my problems on.

No problems just observations maybe.

Well, Happy New Year people. I hope to see more of you in the up coming year.

Peace,

Suyeon-Mary

Where do I live?

I am living in two places...two different lives..families...friends. I'm so confused. I drive 880mi RT as often as I can and spend as much time as I can between two homes/two familes. Tomorrow, I will drive 8 hours to go back to work. Im tired. Im feeling like everything is surreal. I have a load of photos of my 4 day stay here.

Tonight I will "sit" for 20 mins. I wish everyone a great new year.

My hugs and kisses to all.

Suyeon-Mary-Wildorbit